Wow! So, I have been on this path of shedding everything that has brought dishonor to my Heavenly Father. At first I was all for it yet in the middle of it I kind of wanted to go back to certain things that I have shed off. However, the reasons I wanted those things back in my life were for the same reason I cut the out of my life to begin with! Like for instance Facebook; which I did get the opportunity to get on my sisters and Stephanie's Facebook for a few minutes. At first I was like this isn't bad, I can come back. However, old habits started coming back. I started looking through old friends pages and looking down at the path that they have choose to live. I also started looking through people pages who I have never met before but have just seen around the University. In the midst of it all I was like NO! Faith you are not ready to go back! Your becoming a stalker again! lol but seriously I slightly open up the door to facebook and after was just like no no no no!

However, I was approached with the question several times of why did I delete my Facebook when I saw my family over the holidays. I love my family, and we are all seriously spread out across the country. Facebook was one of the main ways for me to keep in touch with my family.

Those were the times when I seriously wanted facebook back.

With so many mix feelings towards facebook I honestly did not know what to do. However, I had talk to my Abba father to help with my decision and Stephanie to keep me accountable. If I were to come back to facebook I would need to have some rules! Also, if I were to come back to facebook, I would seriously have need to cross that bridge of not worring about what people thought of me. Galations 1:10 I would seriously to be just over myself and the constant longing for attention from my facebook profile.

So, my decision right now is to come back!

Four that I must follow to come back on facebook

1. I will not be on facebook any longer than time I have spent out for the Lord in quite time. {One major issue I found myself guilty was spending more time on facebook then with the Lord. I want to fall even more deeper in love with my abba Father, not the world! Therefore I do not want facebook to be a way for me to back slide and loose less time with my abba Father}

2. I will not go on someones facebook that I have never met! {I always felt guilty to know everything about that person. Where they went, and what they like before meeting them and allowing myself to get to know them. Instead of lying and pretending like I didn't know anything about them until we become official friends on facebook or allowing them to tell me in person}

3. I will not allow myself to have facebook messages that have conversations that would not take place on my wall with the opposite sex!{ Yup, no longer allowing myself to flirt with the opposite sex behind close doors.}

4. To continuously ask my self is my action on facebook Prideful? ( Like the certain pictures I put as my default in my album. Before I use to put the pictures I thought I shined the most and wanted people to think I was just oh so beautiful. Also I want people to see all the things I am doing in my life by constantly posting new pictures. Question I now ask is where is my heart?)


Top 3 Reasons for coming back to facebook.

1. It is the easiest way for me to keep in touch with my family and friends that lives across the country.
2. A lot of information for clubs that I am in or want to be apart are found on face book.
3. I take lots of photos and a lot of people ask for them. Its just easier to make a photo album :)

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For the freedom to go home and sleep
instead of going home at any hour with the need to add checking my facebook as my daily routine of getting ready for bed even if it is 4 am!
For the freedom of more time
instead of trying to have self control over my time on facebook saying I would spend 15 min yet 15 mins would lead to 30 to 45 min till I know it I have been on facebook for like 2 hours!
For the freedom to stop worrying about what others thought of me
instead of constantly checking on facebook and seeing how many notifications I had recieved in the last hour or two. To see who was looking at my pictures, who comments on my pictures or liked my status.
For the freedom of pride
instead of always feeling elated and prideful when someone did leave me a comment or liked my picture, or put me with them as their profile picture...literally when anyone would put me in a good light
For the freedom of shedding this "I can be a good girl on the outside...but then be my little bad girl on the inside" when I would message multiple guys on the inside. Never getting to close, but always being the master of the game that they thought they playing on me. Yet, knowing that the joke was always on them. Or was it?
For the freedom of stalking
instead of stalking peoples life and goals before I even met them! Tracking people down, seeing who went where and did what with whom. Getting upset when I see a girl comment on my ex's page and what not
For the freedom of insecurity
instead of roaming to facebook aimlessly and seeing how everyone's life appread to be fun and amazing and happy. Or seeing my friends going out with each other wondering why I was not invited. Or why is she on your profile picture and not I? Why my ex is with her and not me?
For the freedom of transparency
instead of putting on this beautiful persona that my life is sooooooo good. And now it is even better that I have found Jesus. Yet, never able to reveal the ugliness of my life. The break ups , the heart breaks, and all the sins that I struggled because I feared of what people thought of me. Or didn't want people to stop thinking of me Faith Umoh as a good light. I was afraid that I could no longer control what people thought of me after I was transparent.

Why did I take a break from Facebook....
simply to truly find my identity in Christ and not my Facebook

~Faith