I choose to love ...
Even when I'm not sure what love really is. Pondering if the way my culture has shown me, is what I should embrace. Half not believing love is true, or will last because it only seems to lead to unhappy endings or unrealistic ones.
I choose to love ...
Even when it scares me. Giving out my heart means beginning a tie that goes deep to my soul; worrying if it would be taken care of on the other end. Or would it be left bruished, abandonded, battered.
I choose to love...
Even when that means stepping out of my comfort zone, which I have been safely and securley resting in. No worries nor troubles; just me. Because stepping out would mean being vunerable, and I don't know if I'm ready to be put on center stage.
I choose to love...
Even when I fail at it. When I'm told I'm not good enough, that I'm inexperienced and have the ability to break someone else's heart. As I realize its not all about me, but I hold delicate hearts of those around me.
I choose to love...
Because you chose to love me. Not only 2000 years ago, but continually. At a time when I was selfish and only looked out for my own feelings. You put your own feelings of betrayal aside and continued to draw me in.
You chose to love me...
From the day I was imagined and brought to life as a canvas receives paint. You knew the past, you know the present, and you hold my future. You will not leave me until I have become the beautiful masterpiece you began.
You chose to love me...
By showing me that love isnt something to fear, but somthing to cherish, that each and every smile in my life is a hand wrapped gift from you to show me just how much you love me.
You chose to love me.
By paying the ultimate price, giving up not a wage, but the ultimate price. Yourself. So that I can live knowing what life is. You have made a way for me to enter into your dwelling place.

Though it's hard, magnificient, scary, thrilling, uncertain: I choose to love only because you loved me first.

-Stephanie

Low self- esteem was accredit to my Diva attitude and shopaholic ways. I write to use as an Ex-Diva who for so long looked up to the celebrities as the highest standards of the woman that I needed to become. I thought that I would only be accepted if I just looked like them. Hence, I started to dress the "acceptable way" and I started highlighting my appearance to fit this image that I long to become.

Coming to the Lord, He exposed the lies of the devil. He showed me that he had a completely different definition of beauty from the way the world define beauty

³Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as braided hair and the wearing of gold jewelry and fine clothes. ⁴Instead, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God's sight. ⁵For this is the way the holy women of the past who put their hope in God used to make themselves beautiful.
- 1 Peter 3:3-5

I was completely blown away when I read that verse. Like the Lord literally has a definition of beauty. After the Lord revealed these verse to me he asked me to throw away my make-up. Now mind you, I had good amount of makeup and loved wearing make-up. However, my flesh loved when I wore make up. Internally, I believed I was just this untouchable beautiful person every time I wore makeup. When I didn't have make I honestly felt ugly. Like, I would just point at my imperfections every time I looked into the mirror.

I hated looking at myself.

And that's why the Lord ask me throw away my makeup and allow him to transform me inside out. I consecrated myself to the Lord for 6 months of not wearing make-up. At first I honestly hated it! Like I just want to put some make up whenever I went out so I can feel nice. But in between those months the Lord work in me. He said "I want to be your prize beauty not your outwardly beauty. For baby girl, me and you, our love and intimacy only grows. While your outwardly beauty fades. The worlds definition of beauty is forever changing with different styles. But you are my beloved and my love for you will never waver, and never change. The only thing between us that will change is us drawing closer to each other."

Why did I start wearing make up again? I started wearing make up again because the Lord has truly transformed me from the inside out. I can look at myself in the mirror without make-up and smile at myself while the Lord tells me "see faith you are beautiful." He has also shown me that make-up is just like wearing a nice dress. It does enhance your appearance but it doesn't define your beauty. So I have started wearing make-up and feel beautiful with it on and with it off.


One thing that I have consecrated to the Lord is not wearing make-up in the house of God. So when I go to church on Sunday I don't wear make-up because I am going to worship the Lord and he does not consider me more beautiful with makeup. He desires my heart and my quite spirit more than the way I am dress or what I have on my face.

Because of Jesus I can truly say that I feel beautiful in my naked skin

<3 Faith

These song is so beautiful and the lyrics are so deep and beautiful

Her headaches are constant,

Increasing in pain

With each passing day.

She can't even manage

To stand on her own, it's gotten so bad.

Now you think of saying

There's no use in praying.

And still, she bows her head.

So she can say

Thank you for just one more day.

Supernatural patience

Graces her face

And her voice never raises.

All because of a love

Never let go of, never let go.

He has every reason to throw up his fists

In the face of his God

Who let his mother die.

Through all the prayers and tears,

She still passed in pain anyway.

Now you think of saying

There's no use in praying

And still, he bows his head.

So he can say

Thank you for ending her pain.

Supernatural patience

Graces his face

And his voice never raises.

All because of a love

Never let go of.

Never let go of...

He is teaching me...

What love really means...

Supernatural patience

Graces his faces

And his voice never raises.

All because of a love

Never let go of

Yes it's supernatural patience

Graces his face

And his voice never raises.

All because of a love

Never let go of

Never let go of...

He is teaching me...

What love really means.

~ Faith