Low self- esteem was accredit to my Diva attitude and shopaholic ways. I write to use as an Ex-Diva who for so long looked up to the celebrities as the highest standards of the woman that I needed to become. I thought that I would only be accepted if I just looked like them. Hence, I started to dress the "acceptable way" and I started highlighting my appearance to fit this image that I long to become.
Coming to the Lord, He exposed the lies of the devil. He showed me that he had a completely different definition of beauty from the way the world define beauty
3Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as braided hair and the wearing of gold jewelry and fine clothes. 4Instead, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God's sight. 5For this is the way the holy women of the past who put their hope in God used to make themselves beautiful.
- 1 Peter 3:3-5
- 1 Peter 3:3-5
I was completely blown away when I read that verse. Like the Lord literally has a definition of beauty. After the Lord revealed these verse to me he asked me to throw away my make-up. Now mind you, I had good amount of makeup and loved wearing make-up. However, my flesh loved when I wore make up. Internally, I believed I was just this untouchable beautiful person every time I wore makeup. When I didn't have make I honestly felt ugly. Like, I would just point at my imperfections every time I looked into the mirror.
I hated looking at myself.
And that's why the Lord ask me throw away my makeup and allow him to transform me inside out. I consecrated myself to the Lord for 6 months of not wearing make-up. At first I honestly hated it! Like I just want to put some make up whenever I went out so I can feel nice. But in between those months the Lord work in me. He said "I want to be your prize beauty not your outwardly beauty. For baby girl, me and you, our love and intimacy only grows. While your outwardly beauty fades. The worlds definition of beauty is forever changing with different styles. But you are my beloved and my love for you will never waver, and never change. The only thing between us that will change is us drawing closer to each other."
Why did I start wearing make up again? I started wearing make up again because the Lord has truly transformed me from the inside out. I can look at myself in the mirror without make-up and smile at myself while the Lord tells me "see faith you are beautiful." He has also shown me that make-up is just like wearing a nice dress. It does enhance your appearance but it doesn't define your beauty. So I have started wearing make-up and feel beautiful with it on and with it off.
One thing that I have consecrated to the Lord is not wearing make-up in the house of God. So when I go to church on Sunday I don't wear make-up because I am going to worship the Lord and he does not consider me more beautiful with makeup. He desires my heart and my quite spirit more than the way I am dress or what I have on my face.
Why did I start wearing make up again? I started wearing make up again because the Lord has truly transformed me from the inside out. I can look at myself in the mirror without make-up and smile at myself while the Lord tells me "see faith you are beautiful." He has also shown me that make-up is just like wearing a nice dress. It does enhance your appearance but it doesn't define your beauty. So I have started wearing make-up and feel beautiful with it on and with it off.
One thing that I have consecrated to the Lord is not wearing make-up in the house of God. So when I go to church on Sunday I don't wear make-up because I am going to worship the Lord and he does not consider me more beautiful with makeup. He desires my heart and my quite spirit more than the way I am dress or what I have on my face.
Because of Jesus I can truly say that I feel beautiful in my naked skin
<3 Faith
