I am consumed with this world.
With this very day.
Yet I am a sojourner of this land.
Some days I'm am longing desperately to be with Jesus. Words can't express. It is a new feeling because I never really experienced love like this. The only earthly experience I can relate it to is being away from my family. When I spend weeks away at school I feel like there is a hole being built within my heart as I long to see my family.
Yet other days all my mind is consumed with my life on Earth. You can tell by some of the attitudes I bear. Being annoyed, stressed, self-consumed.
Then reality hits, my tomorrow is not promised. (James 4) Ok, so everyone says they believe this, but do I live my life as if this is a reality. Do I love with all my might? What if I only had one more day to show those who I am surrounded by that I love them. Can I love that way all the time?
I want to live life with an eternal set of eyes. I want my heart positioned in a place where I am giving myself away selfishly. Where my desires are glorifying Jesus in all I do.
A sister I love in Tanzania, as well as many of the other students would frequently start their prayers in such a manner as this ...
" Jesus, we thank you for waking us up today. Many people did not wake up today. But we were able to wake up and see another day..."
and they would say it with such sincerity in their hearts.
I want to wake up each day, and thank God that I am alive not only with my words, but with my actions.
-Stephanie
