God's Sovereignty

Where do I even start? This summer, I have been spending my life in Gainesville, Fl studying at University of Florida taking Chem 1 and Calculus 1. Therefore, all I do with my life is study, study, study, and study. I seriously wish I can emphasized that more. Literally this is all I do with my life. But, the one thing I was trying to put back in my life was my daily devotions. I use to do devotion every morning and night. Yet, when I started to attend UF I felt like I never had time. Really to do anything but to study and of course go to church. So, I gradually started implementing devotions in my life, and small group which is a like bible study with young ladies my age that meet every Monday.

Now can I just say that when I started making HIM a priority in my life, I could honestly say that I have never heard the voice of God any clearly in my life then I have heard this summer.

The first time I went to small group was the first week of summer A. And the topic was, "What are some things in your life that you think could be hindering you from your relationship with God." Of course right away school came to my head. Robin, the small group leader, responded by saying "dont you think if you put God first, that he will make time for everything else." I thought to myself, she is so right. God is amazing, all powerful, in control. So why do I think That I can control my life, like obviously I always feel overwhelm. Why havent I realize that my God is greater then my work?
As I started putting God first, he slowly started cleaning up my life. I was what you would call someone who calls themselves a Christian because I go to church, I try not to curse, I try to do the right thing. Yet, you know I'm not perfect. BUT THANK GOD FOR HIS GRACE! You know the music doesn't affect me at all. I can listen to music that degrades women, because I got the dance in the club that goes with it. I would never buy the song, but I got to know the dance. I was the type of christian, who believe that my surrounding doesnt TRULY affect me. I was the type of Christan that believed that I if my friend is living the wrong way, who am I to judge. Why try to force my "religion" down them. If they dont want to trust in God, what can I really do?

Basically, I was someone who read the Bible but always reasoned with EXCUSES.

Yet, this summer, I have finally realized that it is not cool to tell God "you know I don't try to curse, I don't drink, I don't sleep around, and no matter what I wake up and go to church". That its not cool to give God half of my life. In fact who am I to Bentley live that way. IT IS COMPLETELY WRONG. God deserve all of me. If I pray for his help, I don't want GOD to help me out halfway and be like well you know, I only got half you so you get half of me. I want God to do the whole job.

Thus, who am I to cheat God?!?!
No one!!!

I am so gratefulthat God has OPEN MY EYES with grace. That he continues to speak to me with his word. Its funny because I grew up in the church always memorized verse. Yet, it wasnt until recently that I truly understand why we memorize verse. We memorize verse to use in our life. His WORD is so POWERFUL!!!!!
Through every test and trials, I call upon his name. And read his words for comfort. Hebrews 13:3 "He will never leave you nor forsake you" God's sovereignty...just saying those two words are as if God is hugging me and telling me "Faith everything is okay, I am taking care of it." When I truly understand that, Faith Umoh can not do anything on her own, is when I finally nailed by burdens, my sins, on to the cross. Every failure that I named "failure" has now changed to "sovereignty". To the world, they may see it as failure, and try to comfort me with "better luck next time". Yet, I can not say, that God has a BIGGER PURPOSE FOR ME. God is in control. Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see." Hebrew 11:1.


I use his words of promises, whenever I worked hard and devil tells me. "Look at all the work you put into studying, and you still haven't gotten an A." "Look at she treats you, when you always gone above and beyond. or Faith you weren't suppose to be at UF. Your don't have a 4.0. and your barely making it, even with all your studying." Before, it was really hard to swallow my reality. Yet now I fight it back with his words "He is able to do exceeding abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that worketh in us." Ephesians 3:20. I even admit, that I cried when I receive a C on my chem test today, because I really thought God was going to deliver me from that test. Yet, in the mist of my tears, his names was always on my lips. In the midst of the devils attack, I continue to recite Hebrews 11:1 Now Faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see!!!" This is my test of Faith that I am now dealing with. To become a doctor I need have a good GPA, and starts NOW!!! lol right? Yet, giving my life solely to Christ. I trust in him. I trust that my God is my provider. He WILL supply all my needs. He is IN CONTROL.... His sovereignty is amazing. "IF a man love me, he will keep my work; and my Father will love him, and WE will come unto him, and make our abode with him" John 14:23
He is Almighty, and I just trust COMPLETELY trust in HIM. Because I am not my own!!! and I all things are TRULY POSSIBLE. Through CHRIST WHO STRENGTHS ME.

Through his words, my tears stopped and his sovereignty kept me in his arms, as I fell asleep in HIS sovereign arms।
~Faith