So I don’t know if I’m a writer, an artist, a fantabulous speaker, or a great athlete (if one at all). I dance, but I’m not about to be admitted to Julliard. Sometimes I think what kind of gift do I have?? One thing I was always proud of saying, was that I was a great listener. Okay maybe not as cool as the things above and I’m not going to receive some trophy, but nevertheless a crucial role in many people’s lives. I was always the go to person to vent to, to tell stories to, to seek advice; you name it I was it! I always seemed to be the person that people opened up to way before I even told them my birth date. I loved it and still do, don’t get me wrong I am truly fascinated by other people’s lives and stories. Even though everything I heard was not beneficial to my ears [another blog!] I was more than happy to put myself to the side and inject a few “umm hmm’s” “yea’s” and “ahhh’s” as they went on. But I think putting myself to the side led me to believe I never really had someone to confide in 100%.
For the longest I had the idea no one had the right to know all about me except me. My 7th grade reading teacher encouraged us to start a journal. I did that for a while, but it was short lived. I would have much rather get away from it all to have peace and reflect on my thoughts.
Lately, I feel less urgency to release my thoughts to myself and dwell on them So I was thinking [haha “thinking” ironic] Only one person can bring me peace in a part of my life that I don’t expose to anyone. I’m not alone and my thoughts are definitely not my own! Jesus has been here since day one being the absolute listener, loving, patient, kind, and caring. He has the answers to all my questions and problems and He already knows me inside out so I don’t need to hide anything from Him. I have A LOT to learn about being a good listener. This seems so simple, but I was so wrapped up in myself and my thoughts that I never saw it.
So with this God has been leading me to be more open with others around me, even when I may feel vulnerable. Something soooo new to me! So chances are as you think I’m in silence, my mind is in a thousand thoughts wanting to leak out one by one. I just thank the Lord that when I feel the need to run to my own space and clear my head, He’s already in the room ready to listen.
Stephanie
